Four Steps to Become An Emotional Grownup
What does it mean to feel grown up?
Perhaps it’s knowing that you’ve figured some things out and that you’re no longer following more adolescent impulses. It could be knowing you can be more objective about yourself and others, or that you’re feeling competent to take care of your own needs and the needs of others who count on you.
Feeling grown up can be all of these things and more…but one key attribute of true emotional maturity is the recognition of early coping strategies that may have served you extremely well as a child — in fact, may have been vital to your emotional survival — but are no longer serving that purpose well today.
In fact, if you’re still using them then you’re living your life as if the past still existed, and you’re not living in the present.
Some people luck out in childhood… but some do not.
Maybe you lucked out.
You had mature parents who’d somehow managed to learn how to love, discipline, and guide you without being cruel or manipulative. Theywere people whose inner integrity shone through despite whatever weaknesses or vulnerabilities they had and who were committed to helping you grow and learn. They sheltered you, and then, when it was time, supported your journey into your own adult life.
Maybe you got some version of that. If you did, you have a pretty good chance of having some healthy emotional strategies for living.
But maybe you didn’t.
Maybe you were born into poverty, with parents who were so constantly worried about putting food on the table that they didn’t pay much attention to you. Maybe one or both parents were alcoholic, and you shuddered when you heard the first pop of a beer can. Maybe your dad disappeared, or your mom was vicious. Or maybe you were coddled and spoiled, because one lonely parent needed you to be there for them. Perhaps you were pushed to achieve, because your parent needed you to make them look good.
Children devise unconscious strategies to stay emotionally safe…
Somehow, you survived. Your childhood self came up with a way to protect you and to gain as much emotional safety as you could.
You got odd jobs at nine, trying to get approval. You tiptoed around when dad was drunk, attempting to be invisible. You became a pleaser in hopes mom wouldn’t get too mad. You stayed at school, totally involved with football or student government, so you wouldn’t have to go home. You had sex at thirteen, insecure but craving attention. You hid things from a nosy, smothering parent, just to have your own life.
So, you coped. You did the very thing you needed to survive.
But what happens when you become an adult?
When childhood strategies keep you tethered to the past…
Many of us don’t change our strategies; rather, we keep on living like we did as children, believing those same behaviors will bring satisfaction and safety — not even realizing they no longer fit.
Pleasers keep trying to please. Overachievers become workaholics. Invisible children become invisible adults, avoiding conflict. Children who had no control become secret keepers.
You don’t really grow all the way up because you’re doing may have protected you as a child. So, how do you figure this out?
Four compassionate steps to help you emotionally grow up…
1) Identify the stress of what you were dealing with.
What was in your life that made you or others emotionally or physically safe? Maybe you can use this as a journal exercise, and write about other situations with which you had to deal in your family, in your culture, even in your country.
2) Recognize the strategy (or the “rules”) you used to stay emotionally as safe as you could.
Remember yourself as a child and compassionately realize how it felt to be you. What did you do to try to feel loved, secure or safe? What rules did you learn to abide by? What role did you play? A patient once told me that her job in the family was to make her very drunk dad laugh, so he wouldn’t be vicious to the others.
How did this affect her as adult? She used humor to hide pain. It had become her armor, never allowing others to get too close; she was quick with a joke but reluctant to have deep interactions with others in which she might feel truly seen.
3) Identify the beliefs you formed about your role with others and with your world.
That could be, “I’m not worth being loved.” Or, “I have to be the best.” Or. “My job is to take care of others.” If you still are living by that engrained belief, it can cause chaos.
Walker, who was abused as a child, was told, “You’re never going to amount to anything.” His emotional survival strategy was to believe, “I’ll be successful, no matter what.” He was a super achiever as a student, receiving a scholarship to a highly-rated school.
Who was Walker now? A highly successful entrepreneur, who sadly looked at me, and said, “I have everything anyone could ever want. But I can’t stop trying to do more, make more money.” Although his personal life was completely empty and he had very little insight into who he was or what he actually wanted for himself, he could see that he was still allowing that belief to govern him.
4) Risking change.
Walker could see that he was still living by his old strategy. But he struggled to risk changing.
And change, even positive change, can be very difficult.
He would encourage you to try to do what he, at least at that time in his life, couldn’t seem to do.
Look around your life for examples of how and when you’re still following old rules. It could be anything; perhaps you want to wear your hair short but don’t — because you were mocked by school bullies for having big ears. Or maybe you’ve don’t allow others to help you because you still believe your job is take care of everyone. Or perhaps you don’t reveal feelings of grief because it was necessary to hide your own suffering from a father who thought expressing sadness was a sign of weakness.
Maybe some of the rules are keepers; they work for you in a constructive way.
But perhaps you’ll realize the rules are old and need to be discarded. And you can enjoy the freedom of emotionally growing up.
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Originally published on July 9, 2016; updated and republished on December 22, 2022.